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Being Plus-Size
Sometimes, I have confidence, and sometimes, I don’t.
I struggle every day with being confident in my body. I never was “skinny”, but I also never been as big as I am now. Sometimes I feel find in my body and other times I hate it so much. I get so jealous of the plus size women out there that flaunt their stuff. I say that because they look amazing, and I don’t feel that way about myself. I wish I had the confidence they do.
I was always chunky. During my high school days, I weighted around 118 pounds. I always felt fat and had a small stomach. I also could fit in size 8 pants and felt fine about myself. I got pregnant at the end of my senior year. I had a miscarriage at 3 months along. I didn’t feel I gained hardly any weight. I still fit in my normal clothes. I felt good about my body.
I got pregnant with my oldest son, A. I found out Christmas Eve in 2011. I did gain a lot of weight with him. After I had him, I looked huge. I hate looking at pictures of myself back then. I weighted 190 pounds. I couldn’t lose weight. It doesn’t help that I spent most of his first year of life in the hospital with him. He was in and out the whole first year. I stayed at 190. I hated it.
I was at 190 when I got pregnant with C. That whole pregnancy was rough. I was 220 when I gave birth. Once again, I tried to lose…
